I feel really sad.. sad about everything.. which is a bad excuse for not blogging.. but somehow a part of me just feels so bad that it tells me I shld just give up with everything.. why bother.. why bother with studying.. its so pointless.. relax and rest.. thats what you want BH.. yeah thats my devil talking to me :satansmoking: <\/p>\n
My school work seems to be in a mess.. My prof just told me I am the slowest in progress already.. but i comfort myself by saying that I lost 2 months in the IA.. if I had 2 more months things would have been different.. but this are really excuses isn’t it? <\/p>\n
What is my dream? What is my goal? I am taking the game development module that I was eyeing since the first day I step into NUS.. but now that I am taking it.. it doesn’t seems to be all that I expected.. but this is just a step to a dream that my heart still holds.. although just by a tiny thread now.. but still it would be nice if I can somehow be a part of a game company.. this not matter what I do really.. but I really want to be CREATOR.. my dear girl corrected me today that game writer could still mean that it is writing the program for the game.. so in that case I want to be the CREATOR.. I got so much ideas for new game (which I shall not disclose here in case someone steals it.. :mad1) But I really wish to be able to create a game of my own.. maybe the project will be able to produce something of a substence that can be used as portfolio in the future.. <\/p>\n
And to make my misery even worse.. my face has just been uglified by a GIANT pimple.. as big as my eye right next to it.. it looks like I just been punched.. how awful.. and I was really down the entire time of today because of it.. but it was made up by the extra efforts this beautiful girl took.. to be extra nice to me today because she sensed I was upset.. thank you dear.. you are the best! :heart1<\/p>\n
So now.. this will mark a beginning.. a new beginning.. I need to start afresh.. the semster is still earlier.. there is always time.. I will make it one day! And all I need is a new notebook to start this.. <\/p>\n
Let me listen to Hen Xiang Ni.. :wink1<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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